Heal The Wound

Heal The Wound by Point of Grace

I used to wish that I could rewrite history
I used to dream that each mistake could be erased
Then I could just pretend
I never knew the me back then
I used to pray that You would take this shame away
Hide all the evidence of who I've been
But it's the memory of
The place You brought me from
That keeps me on my knees
And even though I'm free

Heal the wound but leave the scar
A reminder of how merciful You are
I am broken, torn apart
Take the pieces of this heart
And heal the wound but leave the scar

I have not lived a life that boasts of anything
I don't take pride in what I bring
But I'll build an altar with
The rubble that You've found me in
And every stone will sing
Of what You can redeem

Heal the wound but leave the scar
A reminder of how merciful You are
I am broken, torn apart
Take the pieces of this heart
And heal the wound but leave the scar

Don't let me forget
Everything You've done for me
Don't let me forget
The beauty in the suffering

Heal the wound but leave the scar
A reminder of how merciful You are
I am broken, torn apart
Take the pieces of this heart
And heal the wound but leave the scar

I had never heard of this song until my friend, Lauren, played it for me on her iTunes and once I heard it I got hooked onto it. The 2nd time I listened to it, I cried my eyes out because the message is so powerful and any song that makes me cry becomes a "life-song" for me.
The chorus was what really got to me. "Heal the wound but leave the scar. A reminder of how merciful You are." That's genius! I actually wish that I would've thought of that...ha ha.
God puts us through circumstances. Some cut us deep and some aren't as harsh, but either way we get "wounded" somehow. God only puts us through circumstances to help us grow in our relationship with Him and to get us to lean on Him more and more.
People think that when God puts us through tough times, that He doesn't care about us and that He only does that for entertainment. I used to feel that way, but then I came to realize that He was only growing me in my faith and drawing me closer to Him.
I am still going through a rough time, but I'm leaning on God now more than ever and I know that He will make things ok again. It's just gonna take time.

Lean on God. He will bring you through whatever is going on in your life!
In Christ,
*Liz Hitt*

Dealing with grief

This past weekend was Fall Break for MBU and it was great to relax and get away for a weekend, but on Sunday evening at 10:10pm a very dear friend of my family, Mel Wolters, passed away after a long fight with cancer.
I found that out on Monday and I didn't think that I'd take the news so hard because I wasn't really that close to him, but somehow it tore me up to hear that he passed away.

Dealing with grief just plain stinks..... and I hate having a bad attitude around people because it depresses them (or at least I feel like it does) and my unhappiness makes others unhappy and I just hate doing that.

When I heard about Mel's passing I just felt the need to go play a guitar or just make some serious music. So I went to Guitar Center in Bridgeton and played my heart out. It felt so good to do that and that's the main way I deal with grief or stress. I just go somewhere by myself with a guitar in hand or just go to a practice room at school and just play & sing so hard that I can't sing/play anymore. For me it feels great, but the sad thing is that I can't sing/play forever. It's only for a moment and then reality kicks in.

Mel's death sparked something that I've been thinking about for awhile. I've come to realize that I have drifted away from my old friends. Ever since I came to MBU I've met new people and started new friendships. I'm not saying that MBU is to blame for that, but that's just how things went down when I came here.

Drifting away from people that you care about is not good because you miss out on a lot and you miss out on the memories that you made with those people.

So my advice for today is to contact someone that you haven't talked to in awhile, because you never know what you may have missed out on and you never know when you might look at that person for the last time ever.

I didn't get to say goodbye to Mel Wolters and I regret not being able to do so or to at least be there at the hospital.

Life is short. Tell everyone that you love them as often as you can. Even if it gets to the point where it's creepy.

I love you and hope your week goes great for you,
*Liz Hitt*

Why Am I Doing This?

So I am taking quite a few music classes this semester at MBU; such as Fundamentals of Music, Private Voice, Recital Attendance, Class Piano 1, and Studio Class, and I've come to realize that music is hard. The tech side of it is very difficult. Like, knowing the values of notes, key signatures, etc etc....

Every time I go to my music classes I always get discouraged when I don't understand something. It makes me think "why am I doing this?"

Now....I can't escape that thought. "Why am I studying music?" Is it really worth all the trouble?

So quite frankly, I don't know what to do. I know that I'm supposed to trust in God and His will for my life, but for some reason....it's hard this time. I don't understand why it is, but it just is.

Being in a music class and not knowing what the teacher is talking is quite embarrassing....especially when the teacher calls on you and you don't know what to say or do.

I am not asking this out of selfishness, but I do need prayer for God's guidance on this whole music thing and for me to get over my pride and ask for help when I need it...lol

Thanks so much for taking the time to read this.
I appreciate you and love you (whoever you are)
*Liz Hitt*