Need to Vent

Please pardon me while I vent a little....

I want to know where my life is going. I want God to break me already...kinda sick of waiting. I want school to be done. I'm sick of having bad days. I want to have good days. I don't want to be confused about what I want and need anymore. I want to be confident. I wish people weren't idiots. I wish that this world would just turn back to God. I'm sick of being safe all of the time. I want adventure. I want to live my own life. I want God to define me. I don't want to live life alone. I want to be successful, but at the same time I want to fail so I can get back up again and show the world what I'm capable of. I don't want to be torn down anymore. I want respect. I want love. I need love. I want the man that God has for me...now....I'm tired of waiting. I hate the phrase "patience is a virtue" because I personally think it's a load of crap. I want a different lifestyle. I don't want people to like me because of my voice....I hate that. I want people to like me for who I am. I don't want fame, stardom, to be in the spotlight...I want to leave a legacy. I'm sick of people judging me....baaah!

Ok...I'm done. Sorry if this seemed selfish. I needed to get it off my chest.