Why Am I Doing This?

So I am taking quite a few music classes this semester at MBU; such as Fundamentals of Music, Private Voice, Recital Attendance, Class Piano 1, and Studio Class, and I've come to realize that music is hard. The tech side of it is very difficult. Like, knowing the values of notes, key signatures, etc etc....

Every time I go to my music classes I always get discouraged when I don't understand something. It makes me think "why am I doing this?"

Now....I can't escape that thought. "Why am I studying music?" Is it really worth all the trouble?

So quite frankly, I don't know what to do. I know that I'm supposed to trust in God and His will for my life, but for some reason....it's hard this time. I don't understand why it is, but it just is.

Being in a music class and not knowing what the teacher is talking is quite embarrassing....especially when the teacher calls on you and you don't know what to say or do.

I am not asking this out of selfishness, but I do need prayer for God's guidance on this whole music thing and for me to get over my pride and ask for help when I need it...lol

Thanks so much for taking the time to read this.
I appreciate you and love you (whoever you are)
*Liz Hitt*